WTF ???

Music : It carries me away. Blocks my thoughts. Kills my judgements. Why is it so fucking easy for music to do that ? I guess it pumps my adrenaline.

Possessions : Thats all we gather all life long. And what we end up with. With a lack of financial knowledge, I guess the life is just appearing as a puzzle with a  multidimensional complexity.

Graphs : Why does the mind wander in such a random algorithm. I guess it can be linked via a graph, with totally random elements.

There were days when we drank half the night, and rocked the world the other half. And now it settles down for a few hours. And that too fading away with time. Its not what I expected. Well its not much I expect from life : fun.

I just have a feeling that things will fade away. Dont know why is it like that. People are moving foreward in their life.  And that makes me think : what next ?

Movies like : Into the wild have exponential impact on my mind. But I guess it turns impractical when my conscious mind makes a judgement. Fuck the reality. It really tears everything down apart. I could have drawn a sketch right away of my dreams getting shattered, but there is a sense of lack of imagination.

I guess my retrospection has made my life a bit complex. But guess what ? I was born with those traits, cant stop doing that. Happy suffering....

Nostalgiomaniac

Aashiqui 2. The next music upbeat after Rockstar which sucks my soul out again. I feel that my nostalgia always shows up, however shades of grey I veil it up with. Change has always been my summit of happiness. But last few changes of my life raised serious questions to myself ? Did all this put anything away I was running from ? I was trying to run away from thoughts and now I am away from actual people. Well how does that sound ? I thought I can theoritically handle every situation. Well practically one of them gave me a somersault I never expected. Well God, I never believed in you, but you made me a dog of my own expectations. Well that was interesting !!!!

Figments of Imagination

Clear. Everything is crystal clear when you are high.
Woooow.

Looks like those hands are not yours. You give them command for every word you type. And they follow your command. It feels powerful. Like you control the world.

The music running in background seems to pierce your soul and talk to you. It asks strange questions. And you don't have answers to a lot of them. Choose those songs with extreme caution. They can lead you in awkward circumstances.

The faces look at you with utter ingratitude. Like you owe them something you could never repay. Even the smile looks evil. Those faces, those scary mocking faces, they never looked the same before.

And the time. The time seems to fly at its own pace. Every moment makes a sound. Tick Tock. Tick Tock. Seems like a race between your heartbeat and the time. And boy. You are curious who wins. Its like every moment is living its own life and you are the spectator.

And what about the thought you were trying to run away from ? Does it vanish into thin air as you expected ? Does it not make a knock back at your conscience ? Does it leave your hand in a dark alley like an unfaithful friend ? Or does it wait for you to regain your consciousness like a trustworthy wife ? Or it just gives you a wicked smile and reminds you of your cowardice ?

So once again I say. Is everything crystal clear when you are high ? You have to answer your share of questions. Not me.

P.S. I wasn't high when I wrote this. I was just a few feet above the ground...:P.

Life

Life, as per my dictionary, is a collection of memorable moments that you ever had. Its something that flashes back at you when u lie on your deathbed taking your last breaths.

Did u ever think that every moment of your life can be made memorable ? Were you too lazy to do so ? Or you were too busy earning the money that you might never use as per your wishes ?

I have seen people living for 70 - 80 years. And they are in such mental or physical state that they wish to die everyday. And I have also seen people who killed themselves as 40. Just because they have achieved(or atleast tried) everything in their life they wished, and they didn't have anything to live for anymore. Obviously the former(the longlives, as I may say) had a count in millions and the latter(the kinglives, as they deserve to be called) could be counted on fingers.

If I were to summarize the kinglives, they just had a attitude towards life that the longlives lacked. The longlives went with the blind flock of sheep and were resistant to change. The kinglives were the risktakers, and they were never stagnant. The kinglives knew very well that life is very much a synonym for change.

The kinglives have a motto in their life : If nothing in your life is changing, you are as good as dead. While longlives just had to say : Earn your bread, we'll think about it later instead.

Beware of your emotions

Human being is an emotional creature. So, like machines, he generally has a conscious rational state. But, unlike machines, he has a subconscious emotional state as well. This makes him an interesting creature. Because every task he does or situation he faces is under the possible influence of his subconscious emotional state. This in turn makes every event in his life not just an event but a trigger for a chain reaction of events.

Let us suppose, for an instance, that you made a mistake in your assignment today. Your boss calls you in and gives you what you deserve(pun intended). Just a few abuses and warning to kick you out on another malfunction.

You come to your seat and your junior irritates you with his regular doubts. You backfire at him for his lack of attention in his work. Your junior then gets a call from a bank for a credit card offer. The junior abuses him in a prominent tone and indirectly tells him to rot in hell.

You then get a call from your parents. You are pissed off and they can sense it from your voice. Your parents start introspecting that was it a bad decision that they enrolled you into engineering once.

Last but not the least, you call your girlfriend to shrug things off, and you find that she had just encountered a similar situation. And you become a sink rather than a source(in terms of Physics).

And all this just because of a trigger of your boss pushed in the wrong direction. He could have handled the situation otherwise and the world would have been a better place. So you have every chance to contribute to this world with every word you speak. Its your choice, in which direction you wish to push the trigger.

P.S. : The employee boss example was taken in order to correlate things with the majority...:P.

What a life without responsibilities.

Have u ever seen a bird flying. Flipping its wings in the air. Leaving its nest everytime to get some food for its little ones. And twigs to repair its withering nest. The nature is always playing with the bird. Sometimes changing the course of the wind. And breaking its nest at times with those thundering storms. The nest is once again built, and once again broken.

But the bird never fails to deliver its share of responsibilities. It is busy feeding its little ones. Young ones need not care for the food and shelter. Their world is little. The boundary of the nest is their skyline. Everything else happening is like a show on the television that's going on and on. And one day, they are ready to fly. Fly beyond that skyline that they always thought was they wont ever break.

Just Do It

A man approached JP Morgan, held up an envelope, and said, “Sir, in my hand I hold a guaranteed formula for success, which I will gladly sell you for $25000.””Sir, ”JP Morgan replied, “I do not know what is in the envelope, however if you show me, and I like it, I give you my word as a gentleman that I will pay you what you ask.” The man agreed to the terms, and handed over the envelope. JP Morgan opened it, and extracted a single sheet of paper. He gave it one look, a mere glance, then handed back piece of paper back to the gent. And paid him the agreed upon $25000.

The paper read:

1. Every morning, write a list of the things that need to be done that day.
2. Do them.